What. A. Load. Of. Crap
These are lies that I constantly told myself growing up. These are real honest to goodness things that went through my head.
Growing up I had an eating disorder, I had body image issues and I was also surrounded by magazines, gyms and the internet saying Yeah! lose 10 pounds fast! Commit to my 21 day challenge group! Here's some Yoga for weight loss. Here's how you burn 100 calories- FAST!
Now I cringe every time I step into a gym, I shake my head when I see the next challenge group pop up. I want to scream at the top of my lungs when I see an ad talking about supplements for weight loss. It took me years and a lot of hard work to get over my eating disorder. It took me being uncomfortable and awkward to get over my body image issues. I felt like I was breaking the law when I learned to say positive things about myself instead of the shitty things society tells us is 'okay' to say.
I learned a new way of living. A new way that I never even knew was out there. I learned to stop trying to lose weight, to stop trying to reach some ideal image that was not attainable. I learned that you don't have to count calories, and portion out every ounce of food perfectly in order to reach your goals. I learned that sometimes the best thing we can do for ourselves is to just stop and breathe.
As soon as I stopped trying so hard, everything worked. As soon as I stopped putting pressure on myself, I was happy. As soon as I learned to love myself for who I was in that exact moment, things seemed to effortlessly fall into place.
This picture is so powerful for me. The picture on the left was the first week Niko and I started dating. It was also on that hike that I told him about my eating disorder. I remember us being late because I had to get my workout in before we could leave for the hike. I also had all of my meals packed with me, calories counted and portions perfect. The picture on the left represents when my self love journey began. It was messy, emotional and a daily roller coaster. The picture on the right was this past Thanksgiving. I am so genuinely happy in this picture. I'm not stressed about Thanksgiving dinner, not thinking about a diet I had to start Monday, not thinking of ways to burn off extra calories. I was just happy. I was excited to spend time with family, excited about yummy food, excited about Christmas tree cutting the next day and black Friday shopping that night.
I feel better. I have more energy. I'm happier. I'm healthier. I'm content.
A diet didn't get me to that place. Being perfect with my eating didn't get me there. A workout plan didn't help me. It was 100% some good ole Self Love. Today I challenge you to dig deep and think about this journey that you're on. What's important to you? Is it a number on a scale or is it feeling healthy and happy? What can you do today to show yourself some love? I'll leave you with some tips that helped me.
Enjoy this crazy journey that you're on. It's never perfect, never point A to point B. It's a constant journey. One that I am so thankful to have found.
I'm always here if you ladies need anything.
See you in the studio,
My name is Hanna Kuyper and my mission for iamwell comes directly from my past experiences. Read more